"Flannery took that as her yes. It was her thumb she moved across Anne’s mouth then. Slowly. Following the curve of her lips up to that sweet peak, and back down the gentle slope of the other side. Flannery know that she knew this mouth already, had lived with its shape and its sounds in her imagination, but she had not felt it. Her blunt thumb made this intimate acquaintance.
“You have the most beautiful mouth,” Flannery said to Anne.
And then did what she had been wanting to do her entire life.
She kissed her. " - pages of you , i forgot the writer

this book is about lesbian lovers.. but wow.. its one of the first books that introduced me to the quiet relationship between words and the sensuality of the body... hmms i should read the book again.this is just one of the few passages i like....

hmmms what a lack of life.. here i am blogging every couple of hours coz i got nothing else to do.. sighs... oh wells.. i have a strong feeling the books i borrowed today suck.. they SEEMED promising...

i have a birthday resolution. read REAL poetry and learn to understand it.. haha.. so much "fun" eh.. meh u all.. im interested.. ahha..

ok lets see what i should do tomorrow....
1. sleeep as long as i can and still probably wake up at 10:15 lastest.. darns
2. read??
3. get my defective eyes checked
4. go to ikea
5. buy jeans and that shirt.. woaH.. such a different style from purl style.. but its cool..
6. start hunt for dolly outerjacket.. i plan to dress up dollish for the winter.. JUSt becaUSe~
7. be bored

mehhHHH i got nothing to do!!! not fair! and my parents are liars!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so much for saying they are gonna buy a car for me.. suCH LIES! i hate it when they lie and do it sO often.. holy crap.. meh.. wheres my mATrIx?? *sObs* now my mom is bringing me around places and saying shes gonna get this hiundai suv type car and tell me i dont get to drive it and shes gonna choose any colour she wants anyway.. URGH.. I could have easily thrown a punch if it wasnt my mom.. she always does that.. make me look at stuff and tell me to swallow the fact that i have nothing on the decision ANyWaY. just liek this crappy house she bought.. wow i can still remember the rage when she first told me she bought this piece of crap.. but whatever. i tell myself im born to be rich.. even though i wasnt born rich :D not funny but ok

hMmmssss im a spanish lover again.. as in i like spanish.. haha.. nothing else.. just the language.. and started to download spanish songs again.. even though they are pop songs.. haha... im sure HY remembers me singing "This i promise you" in spanish!! hahaa... "Si siente un frio tu corazon..." gonna download all the spanish versions of those ballads.. haha.. im such a loser.. dodooooo.. i love spanish!!

ok well i guess im not going to universty. im society's reject products. soon im gonna get kicked out of highschool for being 45 and too old to do grade 12 all over again. and my parents are gonna abandon me by chasing me out of the house with their walking sticks because im getting too old to live with them. and no one is gonna wnat to marry a ugly and stupid chinese girl.

im soO jealous jealous jealous dododo.. meh

just got back from walmart with my parents.. im actually taller than my mom!!! hmms or maybe im just dreaming? or did someone sprinkle some magic on me and made me grow the last year? hahah.. meh. im condemmed to be short and stubby for life. i saw ashwin was i was conscientiously picking out the perfect saline solution for my depleting supply of contact lenses. we greeted each other with alarmed expressions and a loud and long "HeyYyyYyy" before we immediately dropped out gaze to walk back to our parents.. my bottle of 360ml solution in my hand. and then i had to stand there and daydream and pretend to be most interested with hairdryers (even though i need one.. but i was tired) as my mom picked one out. CONAIR was the winner. box and solution in hand.. i trailed after my mom like a slave as she wandered around and then dumped stuff into my arms. and i bought fruit flavoured lip balm.. for some reason i lost ALL of my stupid lipbalms.. my bodyshop ones and even those neutrogena ones.. who cares about my lips.. im just gonnna buy cnady smelling ones that arent expensive. ok whYY am i talking aout the trip to walmart????

whole family is downstairs watching "alien" on tv this very moment as i sit here contently rambling about nothing really with christmas carols playing on my stereo. how lovely.

ah hah! my room is the cleanest it has been in a couple of weeks. at least the carpet is not layered by its usual thick protective covering comprising clean clothes, dirty clothes, ripped clothes( thanks to my "creative side"), crumpled clothes, paper bags, socks, paper.. and stuff. yes, stuff. other than a couple of books and pens on my bed.. and the usual mat and exercise ball.. and yea.. my fan and a bag and.. a sweater.... my things are in its "right" places. hmms.

am i talking too much?? i think i am. but what the heck. its my blog innit?

i have a random urge to start swearing and complaining -typical - about my life again. WHY IS IT THAT IM BORED AND WOOZY HALF THE TIME? sigH.. perhaps i REALLY should get a job.. at least i would be too grumpy and pissed off and tired to complain and blog too much. gawd im so friggin tired of everything.. why dont god make an exception for me and let me hibernate until i want to face the world again?

hmms.. why do i dislike chinese people so much? well i dont dislike them.. but im kinda biased against MY own people. and yet i get mad when people are not proud of their own heritage.. what a contradiction. its okay i think im improving.

hmms i dont look 17 really??? ohohs.. hahaa.. meh it all.. H told me i look grade 10!! 14 years old-ish!! wah.. in teenage years.. 3 years is a hell lot of difference.. so when im 40.. i can lie im 30.. hahaa.. and trick little 28 year old boys.. hahaa.. jokes

anyone interested in my life's dream?? guess not. but whatever..
ok.. i want to be a pretigious journalist - a young, sophisticated and intelligent woman (HAHA)who during her years in university wasted no time and established connections with numerous career type persons, and who afterwards cleverly used these connections to invest in thriving businesses and.. stuff. haha. slowly, my finances would grow rapidly, adding the word "wealthy" in the above discription. and as it grows i would create a chain of classy cafes... in which everything is bought from MY line of furniture and magazines and books. and of course, clothes for my LAWyers. haaha.. its ok.. u wont laugh. an inside joke. and everyda i would be wearig my gucci business power suits and walk around my posh office in jimmychoo shoes waiting for my team of designers(they are gonna be sharply dressed too) to impress me. HAHA.. and mAYbe, occasioally i would borrow the lawyers next door ;) hahaa.. ok another insdie joke. but of course.. i get to design too.. except they hve to do what i say.. and im allowed to reject whatever they do say. lol.. haha.. and of course, dawne, my dearest little sister.. would be my "personal assistant" who does anything. hahaa.. and.. with all my stuff.. 7% of all the profit will go to africa.. and countries like haiti of course.. how can i forget. (another stupid inside joke with fasial in summa school) and im gonna save the world. haha. RIGHT.

ok fine. i should stop.. im really showing everyone the lack of life i have. tatas now.. i might even come back later tonight when compainionship eludes me and im left alllllllllll on my lonesome. again.