too much emotional tv shows on today!!! its bad for my health.. i had to stop myself from bursting into tears twice today. TWICE!!! because of that damm oprah episode and missy elliot thingy. erghies wurghies.. REAL TEARS TOO!! STUPID TV I HATE YOU TV I DO NOT NEED EXTRA EMOTIONS. I DONT WANT TO FEEL SAD FOR PEOPLE. :(

aww saw Sana today.. after a whole year!!! she looks taller.. lols.. not that she needs to be.. just as nice as ever!! we talked for about an hourrr.. updating each other on stuff.. and university.. and stuff.. she spent 1000 POUNDS ON CLOTHING AND HUNDREDS PAIRS OF SHOES!! lol and she said i watch too much tv and its frying my self-esteem and shes gonna personally come to my house to beat the tube up with a sledgehammer and that ppl on tv get airbrushed and bronzed and surgerized to look that way. (but she saw this singaporean guy on this tv show once and said she wants me to take her there if everyone looks like that. haha) loools! like i dont know. but its all good.. we agree on one thing : ANGELINA JOLIE IS THE PERFECT WOMAN. PERRRRRFECT in every context. brains, face, body and heart. we both tolerate the bad movies just to stare at her. :) yes guys, im a little queer. i stare at angelina jolie. nono, not chad hugo or pierce brosnan(apparently they are good according to *ahem* someone. *rollseyes* ahha). verrrrry few guys get stared at by me in a good way. last time i did was today - at hammy. and the 2nd last person i can remember staring at is that guy at chomp chomp.. HY REMEMBER??!! WHAT A JOKKKEE!!

i think i got a toothache for some damm reason. i never have tooth aches. OHOH WORMS IN MY TEETH. shall go to dentist on friday. or whenever i go to sch. *swears*

arrrrrr body hurts :( havent been to the gym in a wholllleee weeek.. went today and did weight training.. felt like a huge fat pig. but for some reason i swear my bum got different or something. it just changed! maybe its in my head. maybe its the walking.. i dont want a smaller ass!! i just wanted it perky.. looks good in tight jeans :) but i dont :(

hey, i tihnk im getting over the anorexic skinny phase of mine. everyone can be gorgeous. (pssttt.. maybe coz im getting fat)

i was thinking about my english course(major authors one) this morning.. about how i used to sit in the lecture hall, feeling embarassed for my prof for being such a "fruit".. talking about the "soul", "love", blah blah blah in literature... until i realised everyone else there was soaking it in, leaning towards his words, relating, understanding, empathetic. .. then i i became one of them. i sorta decided im tired of being so hard headed and let loose abit. complicated emotions... regardless of sappiness and *irrationality* are the things that make humans people. im sorta tired of living the whole *logic/science* dominated life. maybe, i thought, this is the reason for my growing interest in literature. its like an outlet.. i repress it in real life.. i absorb everything else in ppl's words. so many things to say about this really.. and to think about.. i learnt so much in the past year.. my whole life has changed. I LOVE UNIVERSITY. and thank heavens(i say it now.. not before), i moved here. :) so much more to see and think abt!

: RED
who dya love?
hammy. and my imaginary hamster

name some of your things that are red
hoodie, lipgloss, imaginary wrangler

red symbolizes anger. do you have an irish temper?
lol i dunno what an irish temper is like

red is the color of blood, too. what is your bloodtype?
A+

ORANGE
orange reminds you of:
elephants and nail polish

orange is bright. are you bright?
naw, im dim as hell

name some orange things:
my orange flavoured chapstick, the picture of that bar of soap on my wall, lines on my diary

do you know anyone who has dyed their hair orange?
yea i had orange hair before :)

YELLOW reminds you of:
bumble bees and cars

yellow is a warning color. dya fear anything right now?
many many tihngs

name some yellow things:
the bottoms of my sleepy slippers, the fluffy things on my mittins and scarf.. the yellow dress i made into a shirt

yellow also symbolizes happiness. are you happy?
half half. happy about somethings, stressed about others.

GREEN
green reminds you of:
EVERYTHING! i love green! it reminds me of satin and silk.

green means 'go'. why is that?
heck, coz its inviting?

name some green things:
my moisturisor bottle, my diary, my walls, that dress from holt renfrew..

BLUE
blue reminds you of:
cliche time - the sky

blue symbolizes sadness: are you sad?
right now.. not really.

is blue your favorite color?
i like every colour.. but no, blues not my favourite

name some blue things:
my soft sofffft scarf, my underwear, my starry pjs, hammy's cushions

do you know why the ocean is blue?
its not blue u dumbass. hahaa its a light thing.. dontknow the details

VIOLET/PURPLE.
purple reminds you of:
violets and that flower store in citylink

purple is often called a 'weird' color. Are you weird?
yeah im weird

name some purple things:
my *ahem* pretty purple shirt, flowers, one of my lovecrazed octopuses i drew and coloured

have you ever met someone with purple hair?
yeah.. i like. black purple though

PINK
pink reminds you of:
okok im fruity. roses :(

is pink the most feminine color?
bah no. unless u are sexist and weird. its embedded into society as a sissy colour. and only sissies believe so.

name some pink things:
my anti-intellectual/academic piggy pencil case, my ae dress, the babygrl's lips(the girl i saw at starbucks)

OTHER
what is your favorite color or colors?
red, white, black, green

why?
mmm dont know.. ahhahaa cant think right now

black, or white?
black black black... unless my mood begs to differ :)

gold or silver?
mmm diamonds. plentiums. purple gold is pretty. silver is good for casual and warding off vampires, according to myths.

what colour does your life represent currently?
i duunoo.. its like an cross inky colour between purple and white.. like spilt paint that is dribbling across a whitish/greyish/sorta reflective surface. lols im insane