"Half of you have gone as far as life as you’re ever going to. Look around you. Its all downhill from here. The rest of us will go a bit further, a steady job, a trip to Hawaii, or a move to Phoenix, Arizona, but out of fifteen hundred how many will do anything truly worthwhile, write a play, paint a painting that will hang in a gallery, find a cure for herpes? Two of us, maybe three? And how many will find true love? About the same. And enlightenment? Maybe one. The rest of us will make compromises, find excuses, someone or something to blame, and hold that over our hearts like pendant on a chain."

one of them old passsages i still like...

hmms.. went to milikin 4 times today.. to get my report card because of my panicky parents.. even though i can get the stuff from an office in richmond hill.. apparently its miles and miles away.. and i get blammed for single handedly delaying the report card delivery from aurora? dammits.. so frigging annoying.. and then they started giving me a lecture about how lousy and stupid i am.. wth really.. sorry im not turing out the perfect daughter with the amazing grades, attitude and looks("whats wrong with your face???!!" - really if i hear that one more time im gonna say something bad). bad enough i tihnk i look like a yellow baby elephant with beady eyes and brown straw as hair. URGHHHHHHHHH...

well went downtown with them today.. meh.. had no fun at all.. walked for soo long in the muggy weather.. well i really dont mind the walking..its the weather.. wow.. i watned to trash around and swear and all of them.. but of course.. i have to maintain my quite demeanor and fake smile. meh it all.. this werid guy in the subway was trying to play eye games with me while his practically un-clad girlfriend(i presume)is pawing all over him and almost trying to climb onto him.. i can barely look at her desperate attempts to get his attention. i avoided his gaze as much as i can, pretending to concentrate very hard on my cell phone.. but every time i look up he is staring.. how retarded.. firstly.. he is staring at the wrong and unworthy thing.. secondly.. i dont like his arrogant and complacent attitude.. oh whatever. i remember coz it pissed someone off

well well.. i probably had alot better other things to talk about.. but now i have lost all the mood for aything calm and nice.. random rage coming back up.. tatas