Loving You
galye goh
 
reclining curled on a playground benchlike a cat having made love to a kingtar snakes out a death-kiss, to cuttendrils of dreams into our common reality;   
i loved you then.
the next morning left me helpless.couldn't get the smell of it all, out ofmy hair. away from my flesh.it was that insidious; like youslaking my senses in a revolutionary sin;   
i loved you then.
children scream outside, an infant weeps.old photographs are re-taken in my mind.a big girl crowds her swing outside my window,as if to kick the trees down. some things you outgrow,some things you merely leave behind.i light a cigarette and watch the end burn.i do not inhale. i do not dare breathe,wanting as much of it to last for as long as i am alone.   a tiny light rages in the embers of the past;   
i love you now.